Wow! This really is becoming my "go to" place. Whenever I think of something I feel like I simply have to write it down here!
To be honest I was thinking back to when I was a kid today. One of the assignments in our business class is to make a self promotion video about yourself. While I was writing a layout for it and brainstorming ideas I thought back to the first time I ever performed for an audience. I was 5 years old at the time, singing for a crowd of 500. I can honestly say that I remember everything about it. I remember the song I sang, the turning sensation in my stomach, the butterflies flittering throughout my heart, and the excitement one feels before the drop of a roller coaster. When I got up on that stage and began singing I didn't know who I really was or what the heck I was doing... I mean... I was only 5 years old... how much can someone know about themselves at that age? But after I sang that first note... something genuinely changed in me. I don't mean to sound corny when I say that either. For the first time, I heard my voice... I felt my skin... I tasted what it was like to be a performer. I'd alway run around my house singing show tunes and pop music, and I knew what I liked, but nothing ever made me feel the way I felt at that moment. It was like my heart was a cocoon, and after that experience it evolved into a little butterfly... not yet grown, but starting out in it's new shape and beautiful form. It was like the birth of the artist within me... and I wouldn't have changed it for the world.
After I heard the audience scream and cheer, my cheeks turned red and tears filled my eyes with excitement! I didn't understand the feeling at the time... I thought it may have been the idea of everyone liking me and thinking my voice was decent. But as I grew older and my passion for the art grew, I knew that it really had nothing to do with an applause... more so what was underneath that applause that was going on inside everyone. That I could effect one, two... one thousand people... it didn't matter. All I wanted to do and continue to strive to do is make an impact on just one person's life.
As I sit here preparing dinner for my brother, my boyfriend and myself I anticipate the Tony's. I can't help but hope and dream that some day I will be the person standing on that stage saying "I'd like to thank..." Because there are sooooo many people that have made me the performer I am today and without their love and support I wouldn't be the artist I am. I hope that one day I can effect the lives of the people that fill a Broadway theater. I have been given a gift, and I believe it is my job to use it and share it for the good of everyone. To make this world a more beautiful place. And if you have that gift, whether or not you have shared it or it is still kept hidden, make sure that you share it in some way, because trust me... you will make an impact on someone's life. "To the world you may be just one person; but to one person, you may be the world."
Happy Tony Night beautiful people! Who would you "Like to thank..."?